Things are starting to become more real now. The baby is moving more and my thoughts, emotions and fears are beginning to surface. I won’t apologise for the increase in birth trauma related posts. I can’t. This is my therapy, remember?
Over on Ghostwritermummy and Bump, I’ve written about association and how the baby’s movements are invoking memories. Please take a read if you have time.
I don’t know if this helps at all, but I had an amazing, perfect, couldn’t-ask-for-better home waterbirth with my little girl, and as I sit here at 19 weeks pregnant, I am so afraid of ‘next time’. I think it’s natural, and while your fears might be stronger, or different to mine, they’re part of the process, are natural and are entirely, 100% allowed.
http://www.diaryofafirstchild.com/2011/05/24/i-had-a-perfect-birth-now-im-scared-of-trying-again/
Thanks, it does help to know I’m not alone
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I hope it goes well for you and wirhout any problems. Xxx
Oh man – this post makes me want to give you a big hug. . . . and what beautiful writing. Things WILL be different this time I just know it xxx
Ah thanks. I think so too
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