A letter for Matilda Mae from @lauramcdonald_a
It may seem strange to some that I’m writing to you, considering I never knew you, and I don’t know any of your family or friends. But I’ve read about you and I’ve read about your wonderful daddy and your wonderful brother and sister. I’ve read about you all thanks to your incredible mummy.
I started to follow your mummy’s blog three days before you died. I had come across it when looking for play ideas for my daughter who is the same age as Esther and William. I then read a tweet from your mummy. A tweet that had a bigger impact on me than I could have imagined. A tweet that told us that you had died. I read everything your mummy wrote and it broke my heart.
I found myself spending a lot of time looking at beautiful pictures of you, wondering how a healthy baby can just die. I sobbed for you and for your family.
And then I changed. I changed forever. So many people have said it but I realised that I took so much for granted and I made a promise, in your name, that I would cherish every moment with my family. I’m a better mummy, I know that for sure.
Matilda Mae, I think about you often and I’m so sorry that you’re not here. I’ve tweeted about you and I’ve donated in your name but it certainly doesn’t feel enough. You should be here, it’s as simple as that.
God bless you baby Tilda xx