Return of The Bump: 6 weeks and a poppy seed of hope

I’m still in a state of shock as I write this. Thinking that The Toddler would be the last bump, the last baby, the last journey. But I guess we get to ride this one out a little longer after all. I haven’t booked in with the GP or a midwife yet. I haven’t told anyone either. In the days since this:

return of the bump 6 weeks~ ghostwritermummy.co.uk

 

I have even forgotten at times that this is really happening. Apart from today.

Today is full of nausea. Breathlessness. Headaches. Stomach cramps. Exhaustion. A dull, thick head. A sense of tiredness sweeping through every single bone in my body. I am 36. I have already carried three babies. I am to do it all again, with a body less young, less willing. But a spirit that is determined, just as it was nine years ago.

I am feeling blessed, despite the sickness and the nagging fear that is spiralling away in the pit of my stomach. I know so well of all the things that can go wrong; I know that there can be no reassurances. I know of all the things I have to fear, to fight for. But I also know that I am lucky. I have a poppy seed of hope inside.

There is not much to report at 6 weeks. All is fairly quiet, we are awaiting the storm. Let’s hope this journey is not too bumpy.

 

 

5 Comments

  1. May 14, 2014 / 6:31 am

    Wow, can’t believe I didn’t see these posts before hand – I’m going back and reading them all after finding out today. I’m over the moon for you lovely, can totally understand your concerns, think positively, you can do this one more time xxx
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    • ghostwritermummy
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      May 14, 2014 / 5:13 pm

      Haha they were written week by week but only published today!
      x x

  2. Coco Azoitei
    May 14, 2014 / 8:28 am

    I’m just discovering this news now and catching up on all the updates. Congratulations!!! Lovely news 🙂 I so feel for you with the sickness. I had crippling nausea with Gabi and through most of my pregnancy with Luci. I’m praying it doesn’t last too long for you. xxx

    • ghostwritermummy
      Author
      May 14, 2014 / 5:11 pm

      Ah, thank you 🙂
      x x

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