Return of The Bump: the hours before the anomaly scan

I haven’t been this nervous before a scan before. I’ve always kind of sailed along pregnancies, assuming that all is fine and knowing that the baby inside is healthy and well. It’s always been the birth that has me in pieces. That one day (it’s NOT just one day) has always weighed heavily on my swollen belly more than anything else. But this time…

This time is different, in the hours before the anomaly scan.

return of the bump the hours before the anomaly scan

I don’t know of one simple reason why.

Maybe because bad things happen. Maybe because I haven’t felt so many movements this time around. Maybe because I’ve been so sick.

So many maybes, creeping up to what ifs. But I can’t go there. The sensible side of me knows that what will be, will be. And what ifs don’t help anyone, least of all the tiny life inside of me. All that I hope is that the poppy seed’s heart is still beating. That the life is still growing. That karma exists and my body is doing it’s job of nurturing and protecting.

It doesn’t matter if this baby is a boy or a girl. It matters that this baby is.

And so in a few hours, we will know more. We will- hopefully- see that heart beating on the screen. We will discuss further plans for the birth and we will eat lunch with smiles on our faces. We will.

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    • ghostwritermummy
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      June 27, 2014 / 8:48 pm

      Haha yes it is!
      x x

    • ghostwritermummy
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      June 27, 2014 / 8:47 pm

      Thanks lovely
      x x

    • ghostwritermummy
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      June 27, 2014 / 8:45 pm

      I wish you lived closer too! I thought of you today 🙂
      xx x

  1. June 27, 2014 / 11:59 am

    I know this feeling, I’ve got the nervousness creeping in. I’ve never felt worried about 12 week scans before but did this time for some reason, I’m looking forward to the twenty week scan but so anxious. Good luck!

    • ghostwritermummy
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      June 27, 2014 / 8:44 pm

      I don’t normally panic either, but this time felt different. Luckily all was well. Phew!
      x x

  2. June 27, 2014 / 12:09 pm

    I feel exactly the same and my anomaly scan isn’t for 2 weeks yet! Feel so nervous that something will go wrong, even though I’ve no reason to think otherwise. I hope everything goes really well for you 🙂
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    • ghostwritermummy
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      June 27, 2014 / 8:42 pm

      It did go really well in the end, thank you 🙂
      x x

    • ghostwritermummy
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      June 27, 2014 / 8:42 pm

      Thank you, it all went really well 🙂
      x x

  3. June 27, 2014 / 1:01 pm

    I completely get the nerves. I had my scan yesterday and pretty much held my breath the whole time. And since hubby couldn’t be there, it was so much scarier. But everything was pretty much perfect, and I’ve no doubts the same will be the case for you. Sending big happy thoughts your way. xx
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    • ghostwritermummy
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      June 27, 2014 / 8:40 pm

      Thank you for the big happy thoughts! After the longest scan EVER all is well!
      x x x

  4. June 27, 2014 / 2:39 pm

    Aww best of luck! I’m afraid I have felt like this both times, I can’t allow myself to be too happy about the pregnancy until after this scan. I don’t think of myself as a pessimist generally but bad things can happen and I worry that it will happen to me. Thankfully my worries have been unfounded both times so far, and I hope yours are too! Hope everything goes well and you enjoy your scan lovely! xx #blogbumpclub
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    • ghostwritermummy
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      June 27, 2014 / 8:35 pm

      It’s so hard when you can’t see for yourself that all is ok! But it all went well in the end, thank you!
      x x

  5. June 27, 2014 / 6:27 pm

    Thinking of you loads… It must be over by now. Just let us know how it went. x
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    • ghostwritermummy
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      June 27, 2014 / 8:32 pm

      Thanks lovely, it went really well in the end! I will post an update on the blog tomorrow 🙂
      x x

      • June 27, 2014 / 8:34 pm

        Just saw the bump (well, the baby, really!) on Instagram 🙂 xx
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        • ghostwritermummy
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          June 27, 2014 / 8:40 pm

          yay!
          x

  6. June 28, 2014 / 10:42 am

    I think I was a barrel of nerves before all of mine-but think that’s more to do with me and my anxieties! It is that odd sense of the unknown building up I think isn’t it, I hope it went well for you xx
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    • ghostwritermummy
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      June 28, 2014 / 3:42 pm

      Thank you, me too!
      x x

  7. July 1, 2014 / 1:39 pm

    I was EXACTLY the same. In fact, I was a nervous wreck for the entire fortnight before both my scans – with both my pregnancies. Ironically, the birth bit didn’t (and hasn’t so far – *touch wood*) scare me as much as the scan. I think worrying is natural – I was always envious of people who would get excited about their scan and just assume that everything would be fine! Thanks for linking up to the #BlogBumpClub again. I love our little community of bump bloggers. x
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    • ghostwritermummy
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      July 1, 2014 / 2:02 pm

      Ah I love our little community too, its so nice to have a little group of bloggers who totally get it!
      x x

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