Return of the The Bump: 32 weeks and the doppler scan

Today I am 32 weeks and 5 days pregnant with baby number 4. Say hello!

return of the bump_ 32 weeks 5 days scan~ Ghostwritermummy.co.uk

Today I set out on my own to the hospital for what I thought was to be a growth scan, and turned out to be a doppler scan instead. All that was measured was the fluid around baby and the flow from the umbilical artery. And both came back normal! The relief was so immense I could have burst into tears. But being alone, I wanted to stay brave and so I allowed myself a small smile. All that worry this week…

Apparently, those measurements could still change. We’re not out of the woods yet. On asking the doctors whether I should prepare for an early delivery, the response was vague. Baby is still very small, and movements are an issue, so an early delivery is still a possibility. I am to return for a growth scan next week, and then a decision may or may not be made. Limbo once again.

This week I have seen another new midwife and another new doctor. Each time I have to re-explain my situation and history and it’s getting exhausting. I want to speak to someone who remembers me. Knows that I’ve had three sections and had my heart set on a VBAC. Someone who knows why I’ve chosen an out of area hospital. Someone who cares enough to read my notes and listen to my fears. I have lost faith in ever meeting that person now.

My blood pressure is still ok, but this week there are some concerns over my urine sample so that has been sent off to the lab. That’s all I know. I’ve also been back on the monitor to check baby’s movements, which turned out to be ok enough to be allowed to go home.

Return of the bump_ 32 weeks 5 days on the monitor~ Ghostwritermummy.co.uk

And so my bags and I came home today, and I don’t mind admitting to feeling a little lost now. I am thrilled that today’s scan was such good news, but baffled as to why the doctors didn’t share my enthusiasm. I can only guess, since I am not being told, that there are still concerns over this poppyseed after all. And now? Now, I just want to get to 34 weeks. I want to enjoy this next week without worrying about blood flow or fluid levels. I want to spend some time with my hand on my belly and I want to feel my baby beneath my skin. And truthfully, I want this pregnancy to be over.

This week, the popyseed is the size of cantaloupe, weighing in at almost 4lb. Skills like swallowing, breathing and sucking are keeping baby busy, and more fat is piling onto the body so that the poppyseed resembles a newborn baby more and more. Baby is still head down, so I expect that will be the position to the end now. Yay!

Return of the bump_ 32 weeks~ Ghostwritermummy.co.uk

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20 Comments

  1. September 19, 2014 / 5:36 pm

    So glad that all went well at your appointment today and fingers crossed that your little one will keep growing well and that the news will continue to be good at the next appointments. So sad though that you have to keep re-explaining your story, it must be very frustrating for you. Hope you have a lovely weekend and get some time to rest x
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    • ghostwritermummy
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      September 20, 2014 / 7:52 pm

      Thank you so much. It is frustrating but we are near the end now and I hope that I can make it without any more disruption! x x

  2. September 19, 2014 / 5:59 pm

    That’s brilliant news – such a relief to have some firm positive news. I’m sure the doctors are just being cautious – if there was something else they’d have to tell you I’m sure. I hope this week is a less worry-filled one. xxx
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    • ghostwritermummy
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      September 20, 2014 / 7:51 pm

      Thank you, I really hope you’re right! x x x

  3. September 19, 2014 / 6:44 pm

    So pleased all went well today. Have you asked to speak to someone who knows your background? I can understand it must feel even more unsettling otherwise. Sending lots of positive thoughts your way, as ever xxx
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      September 20, 2014 / 7:49 pm

      There is never any time to ask to speak to anyone and I get the impression the answer would be no. My usual midwife has not been seen for weeks and I am not allowed her number so I’ve given up there. I kind of get the feeling they don’t really want to see me at my GP anymore, seeing as I am at the hospital every week now. The hospital is so rushed and so impersonal. I just want it all to be over! x x x

  4. September 19, 2014 / 7:31 pm

    Really happy at the normal readings. πŸ™‚ As always, you’re in my thoughts and am sending you all the positivity I can. πŸ™‚ Enjoy the last bits of your pregnancy all you can, however much longer it lasts and keep on smiling. πŸ™‚ Rooting for you!
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    • ghostwritermummy
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      September 20, 2014 / 7:47 pm

      Thanks lovely- also thinking of you. We will get there, both of us!! x x x

  5. September 20, 2014 / 6:56 am

    So wonderful that you had good news at this scan! I know you’re still worried, I was the same, second guessing every expression on my doctor’s face! I still believe it’s totally wrong that you, I, anyone can’t have the same doctor/midwife through their pregnancy to provide continuity. I know it’s routine for them but it’s NOT for us. Every baby and pregnancy are different and special and we crave the reassurance that someone familiar with us provides, don’t we. Thinking of you as always x
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    • ghostwritermummy
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      September 20, 2014 / 7:46 pm

      You’re right. They do this every day but we only do it once with each baby. I just want someone to remember me when I go for an appointment! x x

  6. MummyandMonkeys
    September 20, 2014 / 8:44 am

    So glad that the scan went well and keeping my fingers crossed for a good outcome at the growth scan. It’s so frustrating having to re explain everything, I had a different midwife at every appointment in my last pregnancy and things got missed! Hope you get to enjoy this week πŸ™‚

    • ghostwritermummy
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      September 20, 2014 / 7:44 pm

      Yes it is frustrating but I think I need to chanel my energies into staying positive now. I only came to this realisation today! x xx

  7. September 20, 2014 / 12:20 pm

    Staying positive is the best thing to do, so don’t let the doctors worry you! I hope the doctor and midwife you’ve found can offer you the right support x

    • ghostwritermummy
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      September 20, 2014 / 7:39 pm

      Thanks, unfortunately I’ve yet to see the same midwife or doctor πŸ™ Ah well, I trust they all know what they’re doing x x

  8. September 21, 2014 / 12:22 pm

    Keep going lovey – The end is in sight. So pleased it was a good news day at the scan. I keep visiting to check how you are getting on. The blogger community are with you on this one and can’t wait to see number 4! x
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    • ghostwritermummy
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      September 22, 2014 / 5:44 am

      Thank you Helen. your comment made me cry, but in a really good way x x x

  9. September 21, 2014 / 1:28 pm

    Hello baby 4. πŸ™‚

    I am sorry that you are struggling Susanne. It’s nearly the end though, and I know it’s hard, but soon everything will be awesome. No more bump worries, instead a super cute little one to love and hug. X
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    • ghostwritermummy
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      September 22, 2014 / 5:44 am

      I cannot wait πŸ™‚ x x x

  10. September 22, 2014 / 9:49 am

    Well I am really glad the fluid is good and the result of that scan ws postive but I really feel for you with seeing different drs and midwives all of the time, you need to be taken of, not feel like you’ve been passed from person to person! Hope you have a better week and tht the growth scan goes well . Every week further on is a positive… though I am with you in wishing to fast forward a few weeks and for pregnancy to be over!! xx
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    • ghostwritermummy
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      September 22, 2014 / 2:54 pm

      Ah I know from your last post that you’re ready to meet baby now. It can be frustrating towards the end, can’t it? And yes, I hope this week I get to meet a familiar face at last! x x x

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