Today Elsie Rose is five months and 3 days old.

Elsie Rose is five months old~ Ghostwritermummy.co.uk

We seem to be finding our rhythm a little better this month. More happy, easier days than not. Less tears, from us both. Less anxiety. And as we move into spring and we get out to walk with the pram more, darkness is lifting from all around and the whole of our world seems to be heaving a sigh of relief. We’ll be ok Elsie Rose.

Sleep is still not exactly happening, and in fact has not improved at all. We’re still pretty much in a newborn sleep phase- she can only really stay awake for 1.5 hours during the day before sleep in needed STRAIGHT AWAY. And she is still yet to sleep for longer than 3-4 hours at night. She feeds constantly, in part for comfort from reflux, and in part I think due to IUGR and needing to catch up.

At five months old she is 12lb2 which is more than fantastic. She’s following her line on the graphs and her consultant is pleased with her progress. It seems we got away lightly and for that I will always be thankful. Our precious Elsie Rose now fits into 3-6 month clothes and while small, she is certainly making her mark on the world.

Elsie Rose is 5 months old~ Ghostwritermummy.co.uk

Elsie is also starting to move. She learned how to roll from back to front last month, and since then has remained pretty static (despite some nifty leg and arm work) until this last week or so. You can pop her on her playmat and within minutes she is facing a different direction! Still so different to her siblings (who would all move across the room in minutes) but I am learning to accept that Elsie is different, and may always be a good few weeks behind in some things. But that’s ok. She is who she is, and she’s wonderful.

Elsie Rose is 5 months old~ Ghostwritermummy.co.uk

I’ve struggled with a few low moods this month; blaming sleep deprivation for this one. I don’t function well on limited sleep and some days I feel desolate at the thought of another night of broken sleep. But then she smiles. And that dimple shines. And she seeks me out of the busiest room, her eyes searching for mine and I know. I wouldn’t have life any other way.

Elsie Rose is five months old~ Ghostwritermummy.co.uk

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