I don’t dream about his birth any more. I dream instead about the feelings his birth have left me with. In my dreams I am scared and I am anxious. In my dreams I am angry and I am frustrated. In my dreams, I am alone.
Almost seven years ago he was ripped from my body and the world came tumbling down.
Nothing was the same any more. Nothing made sense. Nothing was carefree. Instead, everything changed. Everything was wrong. Everything was hard. (more…)
As ambassadors for From Babies With Love, Elsie and I have been lucky enough to be among the first to hear about new products and share in the incredible stories of the children whose lives have been transformed thanks to this amazing brand. With 100% profits going to charities set up to help orphaned and abandoned children around the world, every time you buy something you are helping these children to build a life worth living. SOS children villages have been set up to provide warmth, shelter, food and love for children who have lost their parents through famine, war and disease. And From Babies With Love have made it their business to help.
So you can imagine my pride to be able to share with you the beautiful new range of newborn gifts.
We were asked to choose a gift from the range, which includes personalised prints, baby blankets, door hangers and more. Since Elise is no longer newborn (sob!) I decided I would treat my beatiful newborn niece instead. We chose a wonderful print with the rabbit design for her, and had it personalised with her name, birth date and weight. We also chose a very handy and beautifully printed door hanger to remind guests to keep the noise down while she’s sleeping! (more…)
On Friday 11th March I attended the Tommy’s Awards in London. I wrote the following on the way home, simply because I needed to write while emotions were still running high. Thank you to all the team at Tommy’s for making the day so wonderful, and thank you to Jenny, Leigh,Martin and Emily for being such lovely company.
There’s something quite amazing about being in a room full of truly inspirational people. Surrounded by genuine warmth, humble appreciation and a joyful pleasure in life. It puts my stresses, strains and anxieties firmly in perspective if nothing else.
And today was amazing. Being in the company of families who have been through so much in their lives. Children who go above and beyond the expectations of being a big sister. Midwives who stop at nothing to ensure they deliver nothing but the best care for women. Mothers with achingly empty arms who campaign tirelessly to make sure that nobody else suffers the same fate as them, or at least have the support they need if the worse does indeed happen. (more…)
It’s been an amazing year. Despite the crushing lows there have been dizzying highs. Despite the sleepless nights that seem to drag my spirit along the ground. Despite the hospital appointments and stressful workload. Despite this, its been amazing. Because this year I found my voice, and I decided to make it count.
This year I made it to the finals of two different blogging awards. I made as a finalist in the Inspire category of the BIBs2015 and as a finalist in the Best Pregnancy category in the MADs2015. At the latter, I also made it to the finals of the Outstanding Contribution category, and for this honour I was given a trophy to take home. Amazing. And last night I received an email that actually blew me away. I’ve been long listed in the Seraphine Mum’s Voice award at the Tommy’s Awards. (more…)