Throughout my four pregnancies, the tape measure has rarely been my friend. I used to refer to it as ‘the dreaded tape measure’ and the more people that I asked, the more it was determined in my mind that nobody was able to accurately measure a baby with one. I seemed to hear so many stories where baby had been measuring four weeks ahead, and pregnancies were shrouded in the panic and fear of a gigantic baby that turned out to be a neat 7lb something. On the other scale, I always measured small, and had the worry that something was wrong with my babies.
I still remember the first time that the term IUGR (IntraUterine Growth Restriction) was mentioned. It was during my first pregnancy over ten years ago. A routine midwife appointment had resulted in an emergency scan at the hospital as baby was measuring 4 weeks behind what was deemed as normal. Once at the hospital, the scan confirmed that baby was small, but within normal parameters for my husband and I, who are not giants. Still, that term swam around my head for the rest of my pregnancy and we were more alert when the same thing happened second time around. (more…)
So the last scan was good news. Really good news. And I wanted the high from that news to last a little longer. Is it hormones, or something else? They say a mother’s intuition should never be ignored, but what if her intuition is hard to read?
I am pleased. Of course I am pleased that baby seems to be growing- slowly is better than not at all. So I’m pleased. I’m pleased that the blood flow is improving and all the dopplers are coming back ok. I’m pleased that the doctors are pleased. I’m pleased that the 34 week mark has been and gone. 34 weeks and 1 day today.
But I am still scared.
Baby still does not move as much as I would like, or expect.
Baby is still small.
I am still here, 3 sections under my belt and dreams lying in pieces around me.
And today I am trying to sort through what it all means, really. (more…)
Today I am 33 weeks and 6 days pregnant. And with another week comes another scan! To say that the inside of those waiting rooms are places I want never to see again would be an understatement. I have spent too many hours sitting on those chair with a pounding heart and a too still belly. But this week Ghostwriterdaddy was with me and the news was good!
Baby is still a good four weeks behind the ‘average’ baby- indicated by both the tape measure and the scan- and still below the 10th centile on my personalised growth chart. Still a tiny poppyseed. BUT for the second week running, the doppler results were good. Blood flow and fluid levels all within normal parameters. Normal enough for baby to stay put a little while longer. Hooray!
My biggest concern since the abnormal results has been the chance of the blood flow reducing once more, and cutting essential oxygen to baby. However, it turns out that sometimes the blood flow can take a while to mature, which could account for the IUGR in this case. If delivery was urgent, the blood flow would be worsening now, instead of improving. What a huge relief! So with everything looking ok for now, we are back to fortnightly scans and we have even agreed that baby can stay inside until 37 weeks. (more…)
IntraUtarine Growth Restriction.
A baby that is not growing as it should be.
Not just small.
Not just on the last percentile.
Not just the bottom of the average, as some babies must be.
A baby that is not thriving where it should be.
A baby that is deemed to be better out than in.
A baby at risk.
A high risk pregnancy.