I don’t dream about his birth any more. I dream instead about the feelings his birth have left me with. In my dreams I am scared and I am anxious. In my dreams I am angry and I am frustrated. In my dreams, I am alone.
Almost seven years ago he was ripped from my body and the world came tumbling down.
Nothing was the same any more. Nothing made sense. Nothing was carefree. Instead, everything changed. Everything was wrong. Everything was hard. (more…)
Something I’ve been trying to implement into my life in recent weeks is self care. Regular readers will know that I’ve been attending Positive Thinking counselling sessions, and one thing that has been noted is that I have trouble switching off. I’ve always been the same. My mind has always been active, jumping from one topic to another with no pause for reflection. In the past I have found yoga extremely helpful, and this is something I’ve started to re-introduce into my routine thanks to the wonderful Happiness Habits eCourse from Michelle at The Joy Chaser. Another aspect of self care for me is taking care of my body, and to that end the gym has literally been a sanity saver for me. And recently, I was introduced to Urban Massage, which is a wonderful concept and a must for tired and sore muscles. Its also a must for tired and sore minds, as it turns out! (more…)
Now don’t get me wrong. I never needed anyone to tell me stuff about pregnancy. I read all the books (I didn’t know blogs existed when my eldest was born almost 12 years ago!) and I knew pretty much what to expect. Once you’re expecting, all kinds of tales start to come to light and the office conversation seems to revolve around the glamour and glitz of it all. But there were three things that I really would rather I’d been told about before they caught me by surprise. These are the three things nobody told me about pregnancy…
You’re going to snore
Seriously! I have no idea what so ever what this was all about, but during my first pregnancy I started snoring! Nobody before- or since, I might add!- has ever mentioned this to me so I started to wonder if it was just me that had to endure this delightful side effect? And I say that I had to endure- yes, I know my husband had to also- because my snoring was that bad it would wake me up! I often felt as though I was in a different room, listening to someone snore and it really wasn’t a nice experience at all. I’ve since read that snoring during pregnancy can occur when the nasal passageways become swollen, which can also lead to blocked airways. It can also lead to high blood pressure, which really isn’t good! So there you go. If you’re pregnant, and snoring it might be something to mention to the midwife at your next appointment. (more…)
I was always so smug about pregnancy. I used to tell people that pregnancy was fine. That was the easy bit! It was the birth that I couldn’t deal with. The ending was where I failed. The rest, I sailed through. And then I got hit with a HG pregnancy, and all of a sudden everything I knew about carrying a baby in my belly was wrong. The travel sickness bands, the ginger crackers, the ice cold water. None of it worked. All of it mocked me. Ridiculed me. Kicked me into the dust, pointed a finger and laughed at me. Nothing worked. Instead, tablets. Strong, scary sounding medicine to put a stamp on a pregnancy so unlike any other.
I’ve asked so many doctors why I would experience HG in one pregnancy and not in three previous pregnancies. Same father, same lifestyle. There are no answers. Like so much when it comes to HG, more research is needed and too many answers are missing. But what I do know is this: a HG pregnancy is hard. (more…)